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The soothestone simply generates warmth. A low level steady warmth.

It would affect anything and certainly isn't enough to hurt anyone or anything. Doing no harm is a large part of our creed.

[petsthedog]

[He sighs. Of course it is. He should've known it wouldn't be that easy.]

harm is what i'm trying to prevent, here...

[Even to himself, for once.]

thanks anyway
i'll figure something else out i guess

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I'm not sure what you would be trying to figure out.

What are you thinking of doing?

[petsthedog]

[He hesitates. If Qifrey can't help him, is there a point even telling him the truth? It's shitty.

...No, that's just him being a coward and trying to run again. He knows some of Qifrey's most miserable truths, doesn't he? They did make a pact, once.]

my persona ain't always the most stable, is all
sometimes he goes wild

can't keep pretending he ain't part of me when this place can throw him in my face anytime, though
so i gotta find a solution
preferably a better one than the one i did before

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[ hmm. ]

Why don't I just come with you? I should be able to knock you out then. I have some skill in dealing with Personas.

[petsthedog]

you can’t be with me all the time
especially with all these distortions goin around
even if you could i ain’t about to put that on you
i got a backup plan if it comes down to it

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It won't last forever.

I think it should be fine for a while.

What is the backup plan?

[petsthedog]

and if we get separated? what then? it ain’t fine

[There’s a long pause after that last message. Then:]

don’t ask me that

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Then I'm going to have to insist.

[petsthedog]

i told you a long time ago i’m not interested in a babysitter, qifrey
i ain’t askin you to break your rules for me, but in that case i’ll handle this my own way

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You also said you'd be more honest.

The fact that you won't be is alarming.

[petsthedog]

this coming from the poster guy for open honesty, right?
how’s your vision doing these days?

[That’s not fair, really. He knows it isn’t. But he doesn’t want to tell Qifrey about his last resort. He’s never told anyone here. He’d been foolish enough to start to think he might never have to.]

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It's enough to see you're choosing to be cruel to blindside me.

[petsthedog]

tch
why’re you on my ass about this?
i ain’t pushing you on shit you don’t wanna do

[Because he’s gotten the distinct impression his request is a won’t and not can’t]

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Because I'd like to know what you're risking.

And if there is or isn't a better way.

[petsthedog]

well carting you around to personally punch my lights out or whatever sure as hell ain’t it
and if there’s anything else, you won’t do it, so what does it even matter?
i’ll be fine

[Especially in this place, where death doesn’t even stick, and if he sticks only to emergencies it should be years before he even gets sick again, right? Much more likely this world will send him back to his grave first.]

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Wouldn't it be an easier matter to get chloroform or something?

[petsthedog]

what, like in the movies?
next you’ll be tellin me to wish for a supply of anvils to drop on my head

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I don't know what movies are but drugs that induce drowsiness aren't unheard of?

[petsthedog]

you don’t get it, man
there ain’t time to wait for shit like that to kick in
if i don’t drop like a rock on the spot when i need to it’s worthless to me

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[ the memory spell could do that, but obviously qifrey isn't going to use it here. and inventing a spell that could do that would be taboo. not to mention he's not sure he has the skill for it.

but . . . it doesn't make sense then. ]

What sort of backup plan would knock you out immediately?

[petsthedog]

[Fuck it. He doesn’t even know why he’s resisting this answer so hard. Upsetting Qifrey prolongs his life, doesn’t it? He shouldn’t bother to feel bad.

…..]

you really want the answer to that? you won’t like it
last warning

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I can deal with answers I don't like.

Tell me.

[petsthedog]

fine

it doesn't have to knock me out, is the thing
that plan suppresses my persona directly in an emergency
catch is it'll kill me eventually

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. . . This is your plan?